This collection symbolizes a significant milestone for me—it marks my inaugural gallery exhibit and addresses a deeply sensitive topic: fertility. Over the past year, I endured three miscarriages, but instead of letting them dominate my life, I confronted profound grief and found solace in my creative process.

 

Each painting in this collection speaks to the theme of fertility and the challenges I've faced. Much like my journey towards motherhood, these pieces are layered with complexity and texture, reflecting the repetition and variation inherent in my experiences.

One of the hardest aspects of this journey has been the contrast between the highs and lows. In an instant, everything can change, leaving you feeling utterly helpless. My second  miscarriage was the most traumatic of the three: I experienced rapid blood loss and was rushed to the ER. Upon admission, my blood pressure dropped dangerously low, nearly leading to cardiac arrest. I received two rounds of blood transfusions and stayed overnight to prepare for my surgery (D&C) the following morning.

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Surviving a near-death encounter and Experiencing three consecutive losses prompted a profound reevaluation of my life. Feeling as though time was slipping away made me realize the preciousness of life itself. I realized I had to do what was important to me which was art. Painting this collection provided me with a sense of nurture which I had refrained myself from for almost a year, it helped re discover what is important to me. Feeling as though time was slipping away made me realize the preciousness of life itself. I allowed these events to overlook my ability to nurture myself and those important to me. Despite ultimately ending in heartache, each pregnancy has forged a unique path of emotional growth and resilience. 

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Through this collection my goal is to shed light on a topic often silenced and stigmatized. By sharing my vulnerability and physiological journey, I hope to validate the experiences of loss and offer solace to those who feel isolated in their struggles. Losing a baby can be an isolating experience that often triggers feelings of self-blame; I aspire to foster understanding and compassion surrounding the complexities of fertility and loss.

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My proceeds from the sale of each painting will support St. Joseph’s, an organization that provided invaluable assistance throughout my pregnancies and beyond, ultimately saving my life. It's my way of expressing gratitude and honoring their profound impact. While my journey continues, I am here to share this particular chapter.